Marry your friend

I used to be intimidated by women, somehow I place them all in a pedestal, I stuttered, was ashamed of even directing to any of them, they were another species for me, I don't know why, it just was like that, I happened to have a few friends that were women thru my whole life, I felt a friendship with them and I valued that I could talk to them and be treated as a person, as a friend, nothing more.

Years passed and I was about to finish college when I met a pretty girl, surprisingly we started talking, she showed me some stuff she liked, dresses, tv shows, she wanted to purchase online an umbrella that resembled a sword, I offered help, after it arrived I took it to school to deliver it to her, since it was very late, I offered a ride to her house, we talked a lot, there it begun, our now almost 12 year friendship.

Long before I read a quote that said, marry someone you could talk to, because as you get older, many things will pass; sex, energy, adventures, and all you will have left is some time to talk. I was very happy to have met that girl, so happy that months after I decided to go out with her, It took me some months to get her to go out with me, after several months I knew she was the one, It was my first girlfriend, a person I could hold long hour conversations of any subject, a person I grew attracted to, but I had to wait 5 years so that I could propose to her, and one more year to marry her.

Now we are a few days away from 7 years married, surprisingly we just had a baby girl, why surprisingly? well, as many of us know, in order to have kids you have to have intimacy. Life has not been easy, specially on the sex side; this is where I am happy I married my friend, sex has been an awful deception all these years, a root of many frustrations on my end and a driver to my continued neglect of my physical needs. However, I am deeply hurt for the lack of sex on my life, I did not sign up for a life of celibacy, in fact I hate it, but I can not see myself with someone else, specially now that I am a dad, I want my daughter to grow up with a loving dad, in a loving family, despite all, by the and of the day I am grateful I can return home to someone I love, my wife and best friend.